Day 15 post-op.
Dinner last night: Lemon Pudding and Jelly
I’m thinking about going to the regular monthly luncheon for people that I used to work with who also no longer at that workplace.
I stopped going to these lunches a couple of months back.
There were a number of reasons, but one of them was because I was getting so embarrassed about how incredibly big I was becoming, and with that came feelings of inadequacy and being “less than” – and I felt that I no longer belonged anywhere – and that was a really hard pill to swallow; but as the months moved on towards the end of last year I became more and more of a recluse because of it.
I want to slowly try and change that.
I am an introvert by nature, but I do also feel that I need to push myself a little harder to find a place for myself and a ‘community’.
I went for my first solo drive post op today, and it was fine.
I was wondering if – because I drive a manual car – that changing gears might have been a bit twingy on my tummy, but all was fine.
My friend L came for a cuppa around lunchtime.
It was the first time I’ve seen her in almost a month, and although she knows I’ve recently had surgery, she doesn’t know I’ve had wls, but she commented on the fact that my face has lost weight.
My Wife said the same thing the other night, and I’ve noticed the changes to the shape of my face in the mirror too.
This afternoon before the rain came back in I managed to get out and plant some lettuce and bok-choy.
Lovely to have my hands in the dirt.
Its always a beautiful calming way to spend some time.